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Dawn Colclasure Wilson's avatar

I really enjoyed reading this! It is very well written. Thank you for sharing it with your subscribers. I am definitely going to check out those books. Congratulations on being published twice in Jewish Fiction Science Fiction Writers Create!

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Elana Gomel's avatar

Thank you, Dawn!

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Daniel Saunders's avatar

I also felt like an alien growing up, not because I'm Jewish (I went to Jewish schools and didn't socialise with significant numbers of non-Jews until university), but because I'm autistic and wasn't diagnosed until I was thirty-seven. Until then, I just thought I was weird, intellectually clever, but lacking in common sense, social skills and the ability (and, at times, the desire) to pass as "normal." I was bullied quite a bit for this.

Inevitably, this led me on to stories about aliens and time-travellers, other beings trying to pass as normal, but struggling, like me. I always empathised more with the aliens and eccentric scientists in these stories than with the "normal" viewpoint characters.

I think science fiction inevitably attracts outsiders and misfits, often highly intelligent ones, even before taking into account that science fiction has sometimes been stigmatised as a genre and required a willingness to pay a price socially to be caught reading it or talking about it in public. I have been laughed at in public on a number of occasions for my tastes.

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Elana Gomel's avatar

I totally agree with you. One of my best friend is on the spectrum, and he knows even more about SF than I do 😊 Sometimes in my teens I suspected I might be autistic because I was never interested in being part of a girls’ clique and despised the things they talked about (apart from fashion). Since I liked myself just the way I was, I never sought a diagnosis and I was lucky to have the parents who thought the world of me anyway.

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Lara Gelya's avatar

Elena, I enjoyed reading your essay. I know exactly what you’re talking about—I was also born in the Soviet Union and lived there for 39 years. And I was an alien too...

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Nevena Pascaleva's avatar

A powerful essay! I can feel you as I'm also a child of a communist world and know that beneath the layer of 'equality' it is probably the most racist society of all.

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Elana Gomel's avatar

Thank you!

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